Oh Look A Surprise Ending

Meme_S1E6_9Its weird. As I sit here writing this blog this morning I am acutely aware that this feels like the ending to the story I set out to tell of “How We Went From YouTube to a Television Deal.”

Its not the ending I had planned. I had imagined I would cleverly be revealing to you some grand fireworks style ending where I announced our signing of a deal and where you would be able to find us on TV, but as I sit here now I realize that that type of announcement pales in comparison to what has actually happened.

See a funny thing transpired on the way to me boldly declaring that we would get a deal; I became a woman who can make deals, the rest is just the details.

Despite my willingness to publicly declare my future success, when I started this blog I was suffering from a yet undiagnosed, but chronic, case of fear (at least where my career was concerned.)

I wasn’t fearful of the work, in fact, I loved that part as you can likely tell from my endless amounts of posts about the process where I shared with you tips about development, writing, production, shooting for Improv, editing, social media, marketing pt 1, marketing pt 2, networking, and the benefits and rules of YouTube (which are all still there for you to learn from if you like.)

No my fears began where the creation process would inevitably end, that moment when you’ve done all you can do and its time to start selling. I had developed an almost phobic level fear about selling, but I couldn’t see it because every time I finished a project I would just make up another excuse that I was happy to believe and then get busy with a new project.

I didn’t know it at the time but starting this blog was the beginning of the end for my 15 years plus phobia because I had given myself no way out. As I inched closer to having nothing left to do but sell I got squirmy, seriously squirmy, like a caged animal squirmy, but with nowhere to go, and lots of willfulness and camaraderie (thanks Mhairi, Stephanie, Anne and Shonda Rhimes who doesn’t even know she helped but boy did she) I pushed through.

I doubled down, bought books that inspired me (The Year of Yes, A Carlin Home Companion, The Comedians, Sick in the Head and Small Screen Big Picture), and finally took the time to develop some important sales tools like pitching. I got serious about networking and really honest with myself about some pretty serious career missteps that needed to be corrected.

I faced my fears head on and what I was left with was that feeling one has after breaking the spell of a bad relationship where you’re suddenly able to see things you could never see before, only the bad relationship was with me, and what I could now see was that I’ve had the ability to do everything I’ve ever wanted to do all along. It was me that told myself I couldn’t and like it or not there is just no way to sell people on the idea that you can, when deep down you believe you can’t.

So that’s where I sit now. I know in a way I’ve never known before that I can do whatever I set my mind to and that its only a matter of time before Mhairi and I succeed in our mission to produce & distribute what will become a beloved show about a girl who saves the world one sandwich at a time.

So without further, here is your last…

Industry Tip
If you want something, declare it, and then be willing to do whatever it takes to make it true.

And I leave you with a song that just about sums it all up. Enjoy!

11 thoughts on “Oh Look A Surprise Ending

  1. You have achieved that really tough thing of overcoming your own obstacles and though it’s a tough journey it’s all the better when you do it yourself!! And with a little cheering from your friends and family! Go for it kiddo ❤️❤️❤️

    • Thanks Momma. I know there will be many more challenges ahead but I think this was the biggie. So grateful for all your help, especially through the struggle of these last couple years.

  2. Your value is far beyond any monetary figure assigned to it. Everything you touch is filled with your Heart & Soul – and anyone who knows you, knows that HEART is FILLED with Compassion, Love and Creativity! – we SEE YOU and we honor you for your talent. One of my favorite sayings is: FAITH is to believe what you do not see, the reward of faith is to see what you believe. Sending LOVE & HUGS your way – Always! : )

    • Love that quote. And thanks so much for all your love and support. Means a lot coming from one of the sweetest ladies I know. I’m so thankful everyday that Gerry has you for a best friend.

    • Love that saying darling thanks for sharing. Having faith has we speak with renewed vim and vigor. Thank you.

  3. I saw the enthusiasm and incredible talent when you were growing up. You and Amy were best friends and you did awesome things. You can do anything you set your mind to and like your mother wrote….
    You have already taken care of the obstacles. Good luck in all you do.And I want to add that you have an awesome family. Diego is gorgeous, talented and adores you.
    Your daughter is beautiful like you and appears to have your talent.

    • Thank you so much Karen for your sweet words. I was always so grateful for having you as a second mom during those awkward formative years. Amy is a lucky girl.

  4. As this part of your journey ends, as ‘weird’ as it may seem, you did discover your fear and the only limitation to your success was basically ‘you’ selling yourself. So as difficult as it was…conquering it is a HUGE success in itself! We know that your continued fortitude and determination will triumph because you’ve never let any obstacles stop you or your dreams. I know at times the doors don’t seem to open as quickly as we want them to but your growth this past year will begin to open those doors at just the right time and bring the change you’ve worked so hard for. Get ready because your time to shine in the spotlight is coming…we’ve seen it all along! Love….your BIGGEST fan!

  5. Wow. Gives me goosebumps, Holly!
    Amen to what Norma said.
    I’m looking forward to the announcement when it comes. Your generosity in sharing the details of this arduous and tricky journey is in itself inspiring and physical proof of why you are going to succeed. Even if you ‘doubted’ yourself, you’ve been acting with the open and generous heart of a confident and successful person. GO. YOU. (And your partner in all this, Miss M.) \o/

    • Thanks so much Anne. You are by far one of the coolest ladies I have met in a really long time so this means so much to me coming from you. The past year has been such a pivotal part of our artists journey and I’m so grateful to have you along for the ride.

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